Initially, I believed I was going to be quarantine at home with the hopes of getting better at home. However, my oxygen level had been hovering below 95% where I was then advised by my physician to get admitted into the hospital to avoid further complication.
Thankfully I made the call to my physician as the night I was admitted to the hospital, I started experiencing breathing difficulty and had to rely on medical equipment for oxygen as my lungs were badly attacked by the virus. That said, my condition quickly deteriorated further, and I was transferred to the ICU for intensive care. Little did I know that my hospital stay lasted for a total of 64 days where 33 days
were spent in the ICU. I was separated from my baby throughout the duration, and no one was allowed to visit me due to the COVID-19 restrictions.
In all honesty, every day spent in the ICU felt like it was never going to end – and despite being supplied oxygen via medical equipment, I was still gasping for air as I couldn’t breathe. There were a lot of tubes all over my body, where one is to draw blood, two for antibiotic drips (one on my neck and the other on my hand) and a bigger tube through my nostril for feeding as I was not able to eat. With multiple medications, I thought my condition would get better, but it did not. Instead, my lungs had collapsed, and I had to be intubated and put on a ventilator.
My rate of recovery was at 50% and being placed on the ventilator was the last resort for the doctors to save my life. At this point in time, it was when I decided to completely surrender myself to the Higher Energy and to accept this ordeal wholeheartedly. With a sincere heart, I
asked for help from my guardian angels, and I trusted that they will help me only if I allow them to.
At the same time, I came to terms that there will be physical pain, sufferings, and challenges such as not being able to eat, not able to breathe normally, not being able to get off bed due to prolonged inactivity – basically not being able to function as usual.
Meanwhile, I have always understood that both pain and recovery are inseparable. As the saying goes, “no pain, no gain”, it is very true as in order for myself to keep on living, I must first overcome the ordeal to survive the battle with COVID-19 and be ready to endure the pain and sufferings associated with it. Throughout the time I was battling the virus, I endured through hellacious pain as well as emotional trauma having to experience my lungs collapsed on three different occasions, multiple panic attacks as I thought I was about to die, an inflamed chest bone and rib cage due to prolonged coughing and a lung surgery to save my collapsed lungs.